Paperclipping.com Live Show June 29. 2010

The show went really well last night.
It was so much fun!
Liz is such a joy to be around.

Here is a link to the show archive.

Special thanks to Noell of Paperclipping.com.

A fantastic site! Go play.

So.... GO!
Fix your self a cup of coffee or a cocktail, grab your knitting and kick back.

I have had about enough of myself for a few days. Going to turn the music up (sorry neighbors) and putter around the studio... it needs cleaned.

xo

Getting ready...are you coming?

http://www.paperclipping.com/live
6:30 pm pdt

You mean I will be on camera?! Paperclipping.com Live Promo

The chance to take part in this wonderful opportunity came up at the last minute, 

which is why I have not mentioned it until now!

Join us tomorrow, Tues. June 29th 6:30 pm pst.

HERE.... (click for link)

This promo was taped after too many cookies and a few hours of us being hyper and silly in Liz's studio. 

You can definitely tell we are squirrelly AND that this is complete improv. No plan or script.

We were just messing around to test the camera, then decided that

we amuse ourselves and would use it to promote tomorrow night.

Liz and I will be discussing art journals, scrapping, where the two connect and who knows what else really, we tend to get somewhat out of hand when we are together. Imagine that.

and blerg, will I EVER get used to seeing myself on video?

OH-- you can chat with us LIVE via ustream (simply create an account-- it's free!) or via twitter, using the #pclive hash tag.

Just type us a question or a message on your twitter and then type #pclive. We will be filtering out those hash-tags so we can read your comments and questions as they arrive!

And if you miss us live, you can view us in the archives, which I will link here once I have it.

Off to make a bit of an outline!

Go Goethe!

I may have shared this before, but it is really really relevant right now.

Love that!

Yard Sailing~

I have to admit, I am a total sucker for a yard sale. Especially an estate sale. Older people hoard the coolest things....
BUT-- I am constantly fighting my hoarder genes. ha.

This past Saturday, Jackie Sparkles and I hit the Eastmoreland neighborhood yard sale.
Last year, Syd and I hit it early, as it was right across the street from Art FiberFest.
(missed you this year, Syd!)

Here I am eating pretzels and checking the yard sale map

... thanks to Jackie for the pic of me stuffing my face! ha.

THIS time I went with a list of things I need, so I was careful to not buy anything that I do NOT need.

My Finds:

An old ceramic flower pot glazed in my favorite turquoise/teal-esque color.

$7.00! I have seen these at the garden center for like $50.

Plastic ornate picture frame $1.00!

I plan to spray paint it.

Two brass lamps. vintage tacky, but work!Very heavy. $15 each. 

They are currently being spray painted a nummy turquoise. I will post more on them later.
 

Card display tree thingy, made me smile, and only 25 cents!

a Garden Wagon!

Which I was thrilled to find.

We are forever dragging crap to and from the garden in multiple trips.

I am just too cheap to pay $50 for a new one.

This one? $10. And it seems indestructible. (that is not a challenge)!

It has hole to put your hand tools and a cup holder! total yuppy garden cart.

After Sailing we met Jackie's friend Amy for lunch at Papa Hadyn's.

We had a great time... girl talk and decadent desserts!

A great day. I was tired. 

Reprograming my Self Motivational Techniques...

Adventure puppy (Stella) in the car.

whew!
super proud of myself. I dragged my chunky butt UP the mountain to the top of the falls. 1.25 miles UP. up a trail, but UP nonetheless. Then I teetered my pitiful knee tendons back down. It was rough. and humiliating.
But I did it! I took some fantastic pics!

We went to Multnomah Falls, in the Columbia Gorge. Only a 30 minute drive from our house, and breathtaking.

Paul and his girls.

I only berated myself most of the way up, even though I was proud of myself for doing it. I think I need to reprogram my self motivation techniques. Cussing and spanking oneself to motivate is perhaps not the healthiest way to go.
I mean I knew I COULD do it, I just really really did not want to. It sucked. I hate that physically-out-of-shape feeling. Even though I do understand the only way past it is to suck it up and continue, which I did.... but I was cranky.

It looked like this tree was going to crawl away.

Once we got to the top, there was a path that went upstream from the falls.

A magical place, without a doubt!

I started to see hearts everywhere!

Big heart rock. I had the girls stand with it for scale.

This rock looked like a sleeping dinosaur-- see it?

This moss (on a bridge) reminded me of a muppet face, with it's tongue sticking out! 

And here was my reward, other than the self-satisfaction of course.... the money shot over the falls!

Here are the falls (looking UP)

from the platform you see on the right (above).

Is this really me?

Alright. It's time for that rant.

The "I turned 40" rant. 

    It really has not bothered me, not like it does some women. I like who I am and where I am and have no regrets about the path I have chosen the past 20 years. Seems like I am finally getting to know myself, and that is not always a seamless, painless process.  So I have been doing some serious soul-searching. What is it that makes me tick?
   While I am a driven and creative person, I am also a self-deprecator. Bigtime.
I set unrealistic goals for myself and go in waves of over-achieving, then bouts of crash and burn followed by self deprecation for not meeting my unrealistic goals.  Add in a healthy sprinkling of "bright and shiny" syndrome ( I don't like to call it ADD... I just gravitate towards the new and exciting, or "bright and shiny") and you have a 40 year old who lives a pretty cushy life yet is overweight and really, really hard on herself.
   So it's time to figure this out. Figure ME out. Have I really had any deep conversations with myself about this? nope. I take the non-confrontational stance (extreme avoidance of drama) with things like this. Better to ignore it than to go through the drama of dealing with it. You know? I would never let someone else treat me the way I treat myself- and that makes no sense whatsoever.
   First lesson I have learned is that getting to know myself and dealing with the poo is not drama (and I hate the perpetuation of drama), is a good thing.  Everyone has things to work through, it is not a shameful thing. So no more ignoring or pretending that everything is peachy keen and no more being ashamed of being human.  Life is about the good and the bad, it's the journey that counts.
    I will be sharing my journey here, because it is good for me to stop putting on my happy face and only showing that part of me, AND, there is a chance that some of you are just like me, or close enough to share my path with me.
    I gathered a pile of some really good books that make me think. I put a list of some of them at the bottom of this post...
I also enrolled in a happy-feel-good online class by Mondo Beyondo. When I read their blog post in Kelly Rae's blog it made me cry.
"There's this white hot panic I have at my back sometimes when it comes to my dreams. If you don't get it together now (or at least soon!) the moment will pass and you will have missed your chance. Hurry, hurry, it whispers. The clock is ticking.

Everyone responds to this pressure differently. Some of us get it together and ramp up. We cover our bases, we try harder. We make sure that whatever is in our power to do, gets finished--and fast. Others of us make our foot long to do lists and immediately sink into overwhelm, declaring ourselves not-like-the-others. We're paralyzed with fear and indecision, and wonder what "the others" have that we're missing.".........
.....If any of this resonates with you, if you're the kind of girl who needs more space to play and rest and a certain kind of permission to be more gentle, with yourself and others, than I hope you'll join me for Dream Lab this summer. Everything you need to know is right here and it's not too late ever to discover that real dreams come true whenever we dare to bet on a little bit of joy and an unexpected dose of kindness and courage.


 Another blog post about it here, in Brene Brown's blog. She mentions a guidepost "Cultivate Rest and Play. Let go of Exhaustion as a Status Symbol and Productivity as Self-Worth"  from her upcoming book called "The Gifts of Imperfection".


ouch.  Like a smack in the head. They were talking about ME.
So go over and check it out. So far it is perfect. Nail-on-the-head perfect.

~~~~~

Today I will be kinder to myself.

My Resource List...
"I Thought it was Just Me" by Brene Brown
"The Middle Place" by Kelly Corrigan
Mondo Beyondo ...Dream Lab